Amy

Seriously people, we all worked really hard to get here.  please come to the show, there are tickets still available!

looks like i forgot to blog last night... oh well i guess i beat everyone i wanted to *wink*.  i was having too much fun making El Salvadorian food with my roommate and her new boyfriend mike.  i made casamientos and pupusas.  The both turned out really well.  i think i need something to season the pupusas with, and i also need to figure out the proper masa to filling ratio.

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wtf is up with last weeks episode?!!?  Callie went all Brittney Spears and got tossed out the airlock!  i didn't like her character anyways but i don't know how they are going to smooth that over.  and question 2 are there no security cameras on galactica?  comment, i love the sophisticated system of "keys" that they have for the airlock system.  where is the voice recognition system or retina scans or blood tests??  *sigh*

So drama has ensued over the fashion show.  As far as i know 4 girls have been cut from the show.  completely cut, none of their stuff will be shown.  so there is all sorts of feeling flying around about that.  some of the girls that were cut feel like it's unfair and with the exception of one of them i just can't agree.  we all had the same time and opportunity to complete 5 outfits.   i feel for them but it's a juried show, and thems the breaks!  the only one i think that deserves some special consideration is the girl who's father died last month.  she was gone for a week of grieving and came back.  To be honest i was really surprised that she came back at all i think i would have taken the rest of the semester off.   the sucky thing is that there is no more time.  it's too late to do anything about it.  *shrug*

    So today should be the day where i woke up early and busted tail and been done in time to get some work done on my garments or go to bed early.  oh no my dear readers, not I, for i am against myself.  can you imagine what that's like to be the one holding yourself back?  confusion and frustration don't even begin to cover it.  I've been in therapy, I've been on medication, i need some other weapon.  in most monster or space movies this is when they would bring out the nukes or the photon torpedoes to defeat the enemy.  i need a psych-nuke, something that is going to blow the cruel voice that keeps me in bed when i should be working or makes me fear losing weight, or moving for a job or even just being self confident, out of the water.  Today i am declaring war.  if anyone else would say something to me like what i tell myself i would be enraged, prove them wrong and defy them.  So why is it okay for me to say this to myself?  What the hell self?!  in all seriousness I'm afraid to be this crazy, but the fact that i recognize the behavior and how negative and unhealthy it is, is actually a huge step in the right direction.

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    so this is how last night before bed went.

Me: love you hun night night! * open my arms for a hug*
Matt: pffft! really?
Me: * puts arms down and turns away*
Matt: I'll take that as a no i guess.

    Who starts fights right before bed?!?  Whiny, cry baby, boys, that's who!  i've just gotten really sick of his complaining in the last few days.  he whined about having to wash and fold the laundry and having to do the dishes (that stunk) and pay the internet bill, all by himself yesterday.  oh boo hoo!  we all have to pay bills and do chores sometimes!  He grew up with a mom that took care of all the domestic work.  Not that he thinks it's women's work but that it's not his work.  so that made for a sour sleep.  tune in next week for more, "When Men Act Like Bitches.".

    Still loving the pandora.

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My little break is over.  Time to get back to work.  I'm going to start this blog now while I'm at work not doing a lot of anything.

As much as this was the best student job i could ever have I'm kinda getting tired of the menial tasks like breaking down cardboard boxes and emptying Styrofoam peanuts into the trash.  just a few more weeks.  another work bummer, someone stole all the petty cash, again.  the same thing happened last semester too.  Matt and i are here more than anyone so I'm just curious as to how it happened.  it really burns me to think that someone came into my work, stole from me, and made me look like a fool.

So, when i get home i am not going to take a nap, I'm going to get a drink, and put together a to-do list and actually accomplish something!  i can do it!

4 hours later....

i didn't post this at work, i didn't take a nap, i had a drink of water, and i did make a to-do list and i put something i was half way finished with on there just so i could have the satisfaction of crossing it off.  i almost did it.

i know this will another of those "and what rock have you been living under??" moments, but pandora is sooo much better than last.fm!  i found three new artists i like and pandora made it all too easy to buy their album.  yes i looked on bittorent first!  but i actually bought Hystereo's Corporate Crimewave album and Copy's album This is Promotional!!  *exhales deeply*  new music overload!

45 minutes later...

so my roommate calls and says she's bringing home my favorite sara le deep dish french apple pie and a little container of my favorite Häagen-Dazs ice cream, dulce de leche.  well cinnamon dulce de lecha is my true favorite but this is  good enough for me.  So much for getting serious...

    I went to work today and the end of the semester insanity has officially begun.  We have run out of the acetate for screen printing again and it's too late for anyone to get an orientation to use the output center's large format printers.  So the first of the absolutely panicked students have begun to trickle in with their questions like, "i know know you need an orientation to print here but can i just print one thing really quick?",  "So if i need to print something thats due tomorrow what do i need to do?"  And the pathetic excuses go on and on from there.   I just want to shake them and say, "Get your shit together!  You are an adult!"  but sadly i just have to smile and make my best suggestion to them,  "try kinkos".

    The job search continues.  torrid has a designer position open, the are in city of industry, ca.  I have all the skills required but none of the experience.  same story with some of the other jobs, most of which are in NYC.  i fear NYC, i don't know why, maybe it's a past life thing.

    TotD:  Drugs

i don't have much experience with illegal drugs.  I'm on a ton of prescriptions, none of those are very fun, one for the thyroid, one for the crazies and one for no babies.  i don't think the drugs that are illegal should be illegal because i think it makes more violent crime.  it creates that idea of forbidden fruit and easy money and people do crazy shit for those two things.  if you could just go to the corner pharmacia and get and ounce of Marijuana and some coke for the weekend you wouldn't have to support dealers, suppliers, pushers, drug lords and whole slew of murderous thugs.  Not that i choose to partake in those activities previously mentioned but those who want to risk their bodies like that a free to do so.  like chlorine in the gene pool.

    Today was the laziest Sunday ever!!  i woke up at 9:30 with Matt.  he left for work and i did my internet stuff listened to some this American life that I'm two weeks behind on.  i listened to "353: The Audacity of Government".  insane! all the bullshit this administration has done, not even the big stuff that makes the news but the little injustices.  everything seems like such a mess and I'm still not convinced that any of the candidates can make any changes for the better.  Anyways, then i went back to bed and didn't wake up until 3pm when Matt got home.  It was incredibly hot today, again, but i decided to cook us dinner.  I made Casamientos.  It's an El Salvadorian dish.  a pan fried mix of refried black beans and rice. it's fantastic.  i found this great website with some good recipes i think I'll try them.  http://www.whats4eats.com/4rec_elsalv.html

    I'm starting to feel panicked and frantic about not having a job lined up for after graduation.   it's a bit ambitious to expect that two weeks after commencement i'll start my first industry job, but i have always had high expectations for myself.  i know i have a 6 month grace period or whatever but that is of no comfort to me.  sorry, I'll stop whining now.  but i won't stop being agitated, so enjoy my take on the topic of the day.

    TotD:  SuperPowers
This is such a tired subject.  of course we all want to be able to do something that no one else can do that would put you in this situation where you can be a savior of some sort and people will look up to you and need you and respect you.  Ladies (gents too), never date a guy (or gal) with a super hero obsession, it is a clear indication of impotency somewhere else in their life whether it's the inability to hold a decent job or move out of their parents house or their general lack self confidence.  Real superheros are ambitious and smart and fight to make a difference in their reality through the sweat of their brow and strength of their determination.  they don't sit around imagining how much better their life would be if they could fly or walk through walls or move things with their mind.  all of those things just make people look for the easy way out instead of actually trying to achieve something more than survival.

    Yesterday was insane.  but when i got home kara came over and we watched the dark crystal and made veggie tacos and baked a big cherry pie.  it was all deliciousness.  i had never seen all of the dark crystal so it was cool to see it all start to finish.  it also re-pissed me off about something which brings me to.....

TotD:  The last thing that really pissed you off.
Upon rediscovering the amazing work of jim henson and frank oz i got re-pissed off at george lucas.  i realize that jim is dead now but why would you sever the relationship with the creature that remained and thrived under his son brian???  Star Wars 1-3 would have sucked waaaaaaaaay less had the creature shop been involved.  UGH!  I mean he forgot that greedo shot first in a story that he wrote, i don't even want to know what's next for this douche bag!

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After work, matt and i got some sandwiches and snacks from safeway and went to this forest/park place up in the hills by the observatory for a picnic.  It was so beautiful there!  and for being so close to oakland and the rest of the bay the silence there was deafening.  I have a strange association between forests an being murdered so it was all exciting/scary and adventure like.  i only took a few pictures because  the trees all kinda start to look the same after a few shots, but the experience is what is amazing about this place.   something else that amazed me about this place is that it was so clean!  not a ton of garbage or structures signifying that humans had been there.  i really enjoyed it. 

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