Yes I know, what a super lame thing to blog about but, sometimes I need this blog just to make sure I'm not crazy.
I hate overdraft fees. I would rather be declined than pay $33.00. I've asked my financial institution if I could turn off overdraft protection, they said no. I know what your thinking, 'there are many simple solutions to this like watch your account, or keep more money in your checking account, switch banks.' . I do watch my account, but i don't want to check it every morning like i do my e-mail or blog roll, it would just depress me. I usually do keep just enough in my account to cover the bills I have, however I haven't worked in 3 weeks, needless to say I'm as dry as nun's cunt on Sunday. And about switching banks, I'm seriously *this* close.
Matt and I were at a friends house watching a movie after having a lovely dinner with them and seeing their new apartment. It was getting late and my contacts getting dry and, I of course don't carry eye drops. So i go to the bathroom knowing that my friend also wears contacts and would have saline solution in her medicine cabinet.
Now we all know the rules when it comes medicine cabinets at someone else's house, everyone looks but no one touches. This particular friend and i are quite close so i felt like it would be okay if i borrowed some saline solution and that i didn't need to ask.
So i squirted what i thought was solution on my contact and rubbed it around and proceeded to put the contact into my eye. Instantaneously the burning fires of hell were all up in my looking ball, nearly bringing me to my knees, however my shame of breaking this cardinal rule of "ask first" i muffle my sobs. My eye instinctively clams up to protect itself from further harm only it's trapping the infected contact in my socket. I pry my eye open to pull the contact out and I am unsuccessful. i keep trying and end up scratching my eye with my nails in the process only to find out i got it out the first time and it just fell on the counter. i begin trying to rinse and my eye just wont open to get a good splash. I try to clean off my contact with water and I manage to get it back into my eye.
As soon as i can kind of see i grab the bottle of Aosept Brand Satan's Spit and it says 'cleaning solution for soft contact lenses'. It has a picture of a contact lens on the front, one would assume that it was safe to put in your eyes, but no it's like soap for your contacts and contains 3% hydrogen peroxide. bloody lovely. so my eye was all red and bleary and shrunken. that's right shrunken, it was visibly smaller than it was before.
I rejoin the group quietly too ashamed to tell anyone what had happened. We finish the movie and I still manage to drive us home.
Moral of the story: Ask first and your friends will surely let you borrow the things you need. If you don't, may your eyes be burned out by misleading products.
I love this site. you can make little collage, inspiration boards, super easy. and then you get the shopping link to all the items you put in you collage. hawt.
i made these two.
Today was my first work out at Curves. I loved it! i felt amazing afterwords! I felt like the strong, capable, woman i used to be. What i didn't feel, was lost, alone, pain in my lungs and joints, and insurmountable fatigue/boredom. This program was everything i wasn't getting in the past with regular gyms. I'm going to go everyday this week on my free trial. I'm kinda bummed that i can't afford the joining fee right now, but maybe when i get back from California.
So I'm trying to plan a trip down to the bay to see the love of my life graduate from the school that he has toiled over for the last 3 years. So i ask him 2 months ago, "when are your graduation ceremonies?" . He has two, one on the 16th and one on the 22nd, he doesn't care about the first one so much but I insist on being there for both. I say " great, i want to be there for both of them let's have a mini vacation to Monterrey in between the two ceremonies." he says, "that sounds awesome i would like to do that with you".
What does that indicate? that he is free between the two dates right? or am I way off base? did i need to pry for more information to make exactly sure or should i be able to trust that my love would tell me all things relevant and important to planning a trip??
He tells me today, less than two week before I'm coming down that his finals are happening between the 16th and the 22nd, he couldn't possibly go out of town. so I'm all shocked and like WTF, and he says i'm selfish and that i'm making this about me. I don't want to be there during his finals distracting him, and being bored. not to mention had i known that's when his finals would be i would have foregone the first ceremony that he doesn't care about and come just for the second one on the 22nd and stayed thru to the end of the month. Is that selfish? really?
I feel like I'm losing my mind. I understand he is under stress but he can't even apologize for being careless and scatterbrained. Now he is being over dramatic like he does and is like, don't come i don't want to see you now. I want to be there, and be supporting him on this important occasion but he is making it damn difficult!
this is a Martha Washington Geranium, in a color called "Baroness". We planted it at Mama H's house but this is a fleur i plucked a week ago. i love the colors and the pattern inside.
I just had a really great weekend with Matt. We spent some really good quality time together and talked about important relationship stuff. I took him to the airport today. I didn't cry until he was gone. I miss him so much. I miss our life together, i miss coming home and spending the evening with him and waking up in the morning and getting ready for the day together. It's little things that mean so much to me.
Our future as a couple isn't in question, we'll always be us. It's our future as a co-habitating couple that is so unsure. This makes me anxious and melancholy, but i'm trying to stay busy and keep my chin up and keep loosing weight! I'm at -8lbs already!
